muddgoat

somewhere out there past the plasmatic cloud shrouding the vast expanse of the universe; trillions of light years through space, my words are heard by the One Who made energy into matter, animated it, and made me to live within it the great terrarium teeming with creatures only alive by the breath of the Only One of His kind.

a bag full of stones, red and black i cannot remove it sewn to my back (such is life) uphill struggle i'm just trying to live and wanting to die. but as i go the weight is relieved; i turn to see God He says He'll carry it for me.

like claws scraping my intestines from within-- a blind beast torrent through my brain by and by. rain now down upon me cold, soothing water once more flooding my soul. let my hair dance in the breeze, let the wind lift me let Your wings unfurl from my back and carry me over the ocean. because i can't go on like this.

i would like to say i was shocked when you made that decision. i would like to say i felt my heart shatter, my world topple over. but it didn't. it didn't, my sister, because i knew it all along. because every time i trusted a human they tried to kill me. no more. i won't be so easy to break anymore. i fought tooth and nail against the current with one arm, dragging your dead weight along behind me with the other. you were lifeless, but i didn't want to admit it. you were holding me back, but i didn't want to admit it. you were a priestess of an idol i struggle everyday to cast down. but back then it didn't seem so bad to me, and you seemed o

i struggled at my chains iron chains rusty chains in myself all snares on my wrists they bit me like an alligator chained to the wall all legs aching and worn shoes the broad path is too far walking in circles out of control (so confused) i don't know where to go that voice calling to me they told me not to listen but i need some way outta here i need to take this mask off my face cyborg heart Only One Who'll listen i'm coming home.

As the sun began to set, an elf girl named Yulaan headed home with a sigh. She wanted to play just a little longer, but Mama and Papa would worry. One day while rolling down a hill, (for so did she entertain herself), she went crashing into a small thicket and found herself covered in a dome of white and blue flowers, the sunlight filtering through in thin rays. Delighted by the sight, she made it her personal, secret playground, one that even her only other playmate-- her younger sister-- knew not of. However, as for her secret friend, Sin, she did not mind disclosing its location to him. Having met the strange little fox-serpent at a very

black horse dead lion skeletal head lifted from the grave bites me poison poison O GOD, i'm so sorry please save me from this necromancy i know is unbecoming cigarrette hands static television an image just breaks through my eyes strain to see my heart--my heart! i'm sorry what place does the bird have walking on the ground after she has learned to fly? i have eaten mine own eggs. i'm sorry when wolves ravaged when lions tore when mice came and ate it all up you forgot? i'm sorry

i lay on a bed of roses underground the ravens lay flowers on my grave from my flesh-prison my soul is hooked and pulled freedom from the aching of bones and trembling of flesh i fly higher betwixt the wings of the ravens the sun shining brightly, while tears rain on my grave "come back to us" but i'm leaving to be with Another Who has never betrayed me "weren't we good to you" "we know we stabbed you" "in the belly and the back" "but we have always been there for you" you only want me back to use me no, i'm returning to the House of my Father a prodigal daughter redeemed by blood